Saturday, December 11, 2010

Cagayan de Oro City

i remember everything. every single thing of it. it was on the 26th of November this year. it was a fine and sunny Friday morning in Cagayan River where we had our water rafting. the rubber boat flipped unannounced and i was desperate to wring our filthy guides, grrrrrrr... i'm not sure if this was the complete sequence of the flip.

i was lying on a deep wide river. i didn't hear anything except from the noise of the water that was killing me and myself saying "i'm drowning."

i was struggling in the midst of a rapid in the river. i was wearing a life vest but why can't i make myself float? i wanted to shout but there's no way i could. the water was wrapping my whole face with no possible way of breathing. i tried to open my mouth if i could breathe, but no way, i couldn't breathe. i was suffocated. i took a lot of water instead of air. i was fluttering my hands and my legs on the water as i aimed to reach my face or even my nose or my mouth in the surface of the water to catch a breath, even just a single breath but it's not allowing me. the hard flow of the water pushed me down as i wanted to make my body went up. it felt like every breath was my last breath. i don't know what was that but i remembered myself breathing so hard with no air. i was breathing up only to my throat but that was not enough and i wanted to breathe again but 'twas very impossible to catch a long one but glad i did when i was being rescued and i was craving to breathe more and more. SIGH.

that was a very nerve wracking moment of my life indeed. i felt like there's a small disconnection from the world. i thought that was the end but i prayed and hope that God will spare my life. i'm grateful that He did. woooooooooooooohhh that was so close.

to my buddies jaja and an, we shared about the same experience after the flip and i hope i conveyed it right and exactly the same as what happened to you both. i admit that i was very frustrated because that was no joke and being drowned was not funny yet i realized that at least the guides did their part to save us.

we sailed like almost 4 hours in the river, it was long. we had 21 great rapids, that was a lot i knew. the water was cold and i liked it when it splashed on my skin. we've been through a lot of shouts in the first few rapids before the flip and we're the best rafters i guess, like paddle easy and paddle hard and high five, haha. let's have more LAAG and adventures hap..,

an, jaja, floi, ronan, me and william
before the water rafting...sooo excited

one of the rapids..thrilled

high five after a rapid..we survived with one flip yet still anxious, haha

after the rafting.. EXHAUSTED (sigh)

Water rafting was one of the best experience we had although one flip was very disappointing and obnoxious yet we enjoyed and we liked everything 'bout rafting. the most talked of all the things we did in Mindanao.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

round 12 of 12

It's Sunday. People are supposed to go out today but they chose to stay home, excited to watch Manny Paquiao's fight versus Antonio Margarito, a Mexican. Almost everyone here is into boxing but not me yet I don't want to miss his every game. I watched it because i don't want being left behind by his punches or just for the sake of watching. He's after all a fellow countryman. There were some who watched it in pay per view while we watched it in a local TV station with its millions of commercials after each round. Boring. However, every fight he had was good. Round 11 this game, damn it. I was overwhelmed when he asked the referee in the middle of the fight if they could stop it. He probably sensed that Margarito was already weak yet they continued. My hat's off to you both, Manny for your empathy and Margarito for being a fighter. My heart sank everytime he's being thrown  a punch but he got me alive when he threw his strong small left fist. Sweet. But the previous fights he had were terrible. There were death/s after the game. One was heart attacked being overwhelmed by the game, the other was an argument about the game and ended being stabbed. Hopefully, that wouldn't happen again this time and in the next fights. Cross my fingers.

Very well Manny, this is another pride for the us. Congratulations Philippines. MABUHAY!!!

Friday, November 12, 2010

are we done yet???

i don't know where to begin because i don't know when it started. here's the thing, i'll close my eyes now and let the memories we had play on my mind.

oh!!! now i remember.

i was hesitant to be your friend but you befriended me. i was swayed by your camaraderie. we enjoyed each others company, we laughed out loud most of the times, there were tears but rarely. we were never bored talking until dawn would slap our faces reminding that we should apart from each other to hit the hay. i remember every good and bad times we had even the lame times. i could see clearly that we had so much fun. we teased each other,  we shared secrets here and there, we talked about people behind their backs, hahahaha. there were a few times when we had some misunderstanding but we're not affected, we ignored them instead although we didn't discuss them. it's just our friendship won't allow even a single dispute to ruin it. Indeed, we became great friends.

but lately, i was flabbergasted. Everything about you were cold. i thought it's just your mood swings but i realized that it's not about your mood swings after all.. i could feel the changes, i'm open to it but it's different. i understand that you have a new group of friends, no problem with that because i could be their friend too. but i wonder what went wrong? you are not the friend i used to call friend. it's odd when i see you in the street without grabbing your full attention and dropping my grin and shouting my big "HEY".

i feel terrible that this is happening to us. i guess you have also noticed the change you had but i'm cool with that if u had chose to change that way. i just thought our friendship would last like forever but it got wasted in just a blink of an eye. i never saw this coming and i wasn't prepared. you faded fast as the lightning. =(

so there it was, i want to close my eyes still and have it continued playing but i should open it now facing the music. A part of me is crying because i'm afraid that our friendship would only last until here. well, i hope not. i hope you knew that you always have a friend in me.

Thursday, November 11, 2010


the night was sleeping
while the dawn was approaching
i soaked myself on bed
"I decided", i said

my eyes were closed
i felt like i was dosed
good memories were playing
my heart was aching

i've waited for so many abandoned nights
i've seen how reality bites
you're not seeing me anymore
damn it, i miss you more

you've flown away
i can't make you stay
i've gone mad
heaven went sad

you took my heart away
when everything was bright and gay
you had left me in the middle
where i was about to settle

i'll then cut the memories
into its very pieces
throw it away in the windy air
no more TEARS, i SWEAR

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

i was caught...

it was an unplanned night in one of the nights of 2010, i can't remember if the moon was there neither the stars. my friend bugged me to go with her. i declined. but her power to convince me has reached the level of my resistance. fine.

i was kind of bored at first but i met a guy. sarcastic yet i was having fun. we became friends, we enjoyed each other's company, we shared the same thoughts. sometimes, there were disagreements but we're cool. we often talked until dawn, i don't get bored. different from the other guys, very gentle, i thought. he's probably off the market.

there's this one thing that i was afraid of. i might like him and then one day, i'll wake up realizing that i'm falling in love with him. that's what i've been dreaded to happen and here i am in misery. i should've not let myself devoured every moment we spent but i liked it somehow.

we didn't see each other these past few days, i've waited, always waiting but he never showed up. so here i am alone trying to figure what went wrong. i'm almost fed up, i hate him for doing this to me but i still want to see him though. yes, i'm crazy. at least i admit it.

i thought i was invincible, such stuffs won't penetrate but it did. foolish. i could've shield hard but i was so weak to resist, hahahahaha. my stupidity counts again and again. this leads to nowhere, i knew it. i reminded myself in the first place but i chose to savour it. there were no promises or commitments but i like him, i really do. it's a very nice feeling i rarely felt.

now i knew that i'm just being swayed with the current situation. yes, i fell in love with you but you're a jerk, did you know that? you left no messages in my inbox even offline messages, is it so hard to drop by and say hi?, you could tell me what's happening, i wonder what are you trying to do. duh... nah, thanks for sharing your time with me, i appreciated it but now i detest it bastard. you left me injured, you see? naive.

i thought everything we had was real but it's just the same as the other lame situations i had with other guys. i'll stop this insanity, cut it off, cut it off.

I'd Love You To Want Me Lobo Cover

if only i'm some years older OR if only you're some years younger

You Decorated My Life Kenny Rogers Cover

larri, u really decorated my life..,

Monday, November 8, 2010

You Didn't Have To Be So Nice Lovin Spoonful Cover

i was 11years old when i learned this song, this one of the nursery rhymes in my cassette tapes my mama bought for me. i like this song and i like you too, and oh hey, will you marry me??? hahahahahah

It's Sad To Belong England Dan And John Ford Coley Cover

hey, i thought i'm just in love with the song, damn it, i'm in love with you too, hahhahahahha. could i have your shirt and your guitar and and could i have you too??? =)

Friday, November 5, 2010

real writers

hahaha, copied.

i need you now by lady antebellum

i don't know how i can do without i just need you now...

damn it, i don't want to feel this way but it's not allowing me. i want to run from it but it chases after me. this is insane, stupid and crazy. i should've not let myself savour the emotion and didn't let it penetrate. i should've stopped it before this happens although i knew that this would happen. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

but half of me disagrees. i'm enjoying every moment even the dull moments and i like its peculiarity, so rare. i feel very different. we're lunatics and i like it A LOT (laughs). so, it's true that words can't describe. i remember, i'm quite good at describing but now i flunk it, hahahahah.

i hope i'm just not swayed by how i feel right now. nah, i don't know. i just like this to get real and not just the other same old feelings. there are arguments inside me and i find it funny, thank you myself...

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

i'm screwed

whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat??? there's no where to run. oh boi, i'm screwed. HEEEEEEEEEEELP!!!

and it's posted everywhere, what am i gonna do???

Tuesday, November 2, 2010


i'm just quite confuse. the state says couples should use contraceptives to avoid having more children. in that way, they could give good life to them and less struggle and we don't overpopulate too. on the other hand, the church here is against contraceptives because it is said that we should multiply, let's have more kids. so which is which???
"don't deprive yourself from bearing more children." I heard this message from a priest who celebrated the mass of the wedding i attended on one of the Saturdays in October. i like that idea but considering a poor couple, how is it possible then??? would they help support the family's needs, support the kids until they could finish schooling??? (laughs). NO. i don't want to sound like i'm really in favor of the contraceptives but somehow it's needed. we can't deny the fact that lovemaking is one of the nicest thing a couple could share to each other but definitely not having more kids, it cost a lot unless u could afford to raise them up so well. so you choose for yourself now.,

Colbie Caillat - Fallin' For You

i like the lyrics a lot. i don't know where to start but all i knew now is i'm probably in love, damn it, am i? i hate to admit but yes i guess i am and it feels so right and very different. we're friends, very good friends, i don't know if we could be more than that but i hope we could. i'm crazy, he's crazy, we're both crazy yet we enjoy each other's company. but sometimes i tend to withdraw my feelings, i'm afraid to really fall in love with him. there were times that i was tempted to tell him but i can't, it's too soon to tell. gosh, i don't want to fall in love with him but 3/4 of me is so excited for him. wake me up now if i'm just dreaming, oooohhh boy...

i got blue

Madeline got Blue- The Caring Soul.
You'll go out of your way to help a stranger, and to do almost anything for a friend despite the personal cost. You need to be loved, appreciated, and accepted by others. You'll reveal your faults so others understand you more. You are easily heartbroken, but not the type to be betrayed. You always get revenge. Red souls either find you annoying, or befriend you. White souls open up to you easily. Yellow souls may disappoint you, valuing fun more than friendship. Other blue souls will care for you.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

to be a great champion

To be a great champion, you must believe you are the best. If you're not, pretend you are.


in contrary  to the song BILLIONAIRE, i DON'T want to be a BILLIONAIRE

Friday, October 8, 2010

Does Love Go With Violence???


This question from Raiza was for Blake, it was funny because he refused to answer it though he suggested that she should asked him about music. Anyway, i've got here an opinion for that.

Love and Violence are very different. They go separate ways. How can you love and hurt someone you love at the same time? Although, sometimes we hurt them in some ways but not to the extent of hitting them. There's no love when there's violence. I don't know what it is but it's not love after all. I would be very seriously devastated if someone i knew who loves me will hit me. Love always goes with love, and love leads you to many good things, but definitely not violence.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

sugar, my honey HONEY

Grandma's wisdom: Honey speeds healing.

Science says: Yes. Mild to moderate burns (but not other types of wounds) heal faster if you spread honey on them -- maybe because it creates a moist, antibacterial environment that promotes tissue growth.

How To Get Lucky?

Scientific proof that you make your own breaks.

For centuries, people have recognized the power of luck and have done whatever they could to try seizing it. Take knocking on wood, thought to date back to pagan rituals aimed at eliciting help from powerful tree gods. We still do it today, though few, if any, of us worship tree gods. So why do we pass this and other superstitions down from generation to generation? The answer lies in the power of luck.

Live a Charmed Life
To investigate scientifically why some people are consistently lucky and others aren't, I advertised in national periodicals for volunteers of both varieties. Four hundred men and women from all walks of life -- ages 18 to 84 -- responded.

Over a ten-year period, I interviewed these volunteers, asked them to complete diaries, personality questionnaires and IQ tests, and invited them to my laboratory for experiments. Lucky people, I found, get that way via some basic principles -- seizing chance opportunities; creating self-fulfilling prophecies through positive expectations; and adopting a resilient attitude that turns bad luck around.
Open Your Mind
Consider chance opportunities: Lucky people regularly have them; unlucky people don't. To determine why, I gave lucky and unlucky people a newspaper, and asked them to tell me how many photos were inside. On average, unlucky people spent about two minutes on this exercise; lucky people spent seconds. Why? Because on the paper's second page -- in big type -- was the message "Stop counting: There are 43 photographs in this newspaper." Lucky people tended to spot the message. Unlucky ones didn't. I put a second one halfway through the paper: "Stop counting, tell the experimenter you have seen this and win $250." Again, the unlucky people missed it.
The lesson: Unlucky people miss chance opportunities because they're too busy looking for something else. Lucky people see what is there rather than just what they're looking for.
This is only part of the story. Many of my lucky participants tried hard to add variety to their lives. Before making important decisions, one altered his route to work. Another described a way of meeting people. He noticed that at parties he usually talked to the same type of person. To change this, he thought of a color and then spoke only to guests wearing that color -- women in red, say, or men in black.

Does this technique work? Well, imagine living in the center of an apple orchard. Each day you must collect a basket of apples. At first, it won't matter where you look. The entire orchard will have apples. Gradually, it becomes harder to find apples in places you've visited before. If you go to new parts of the orchard each time, the odds of finding apples will increase dramatically. It is exactly the same with luck.

Relish the Upside
Another important principle revolved around the way in which lucky and unlucky people deal with misfortune. Imagine representing your country in the Olympics. You compete, do well, and win a bronze medal. Now imagine a second Olympics. This time you do even better and win a silver medal. How happy do you think you'd feel? Most of us think we'd be happier after winning the silver medal.

But research suggests athletes who win bronze medals are actually happier. This is because silver medalists think that if they'd performed slightly better, they might have won a gold medal. In contrast, bronze medalists focus on how if they'd performed slightly worse, they wouldn't have won anything. Psychologists call this ability to imagine what might have happened, rather than what actually happened, "counter-factual" thinking.

To find out if lucky people use counter-factual thinking to ease the impact of misfortune, I asked my subjects to imagine being in a bank. Suddenly, an armed robber enters and fires a shot that hits them in the arms. Unlucky people tended to say this would be their bad luck to be in the bank during the robbery. Lucky people said it could have been worse: "You could have been shot in the head." This kind of thinking makes people feel better about themselves, keeps expectations high, and increases the likelihood of continuing to live a lucky life.

Learn to Be Lucky
Finally, I created a series of experiments examining whether thought and behavior can enhance good fortune.

First came one-on-one meetings, during which participants completed questionnaires that measured their luck and their satisfaction with six key areas of their lives. I then outlined the main principles of luck, and described techniques designed to help participants react like lucky people. For instance, they were taught how to be more open to opportunities around them, how to break routines, and how to deal with bad luck by imagining things being worse. They were asked to carry out specific exercises for a month and then report back to me.

The results were dramatic: 80 percent were happier and more satisfied with their lives -- and luckier. One unlucky subject said that after adjusting her attitude -- expecting good fortune, not dwelling on the negative -- her bad luck had vanished. One day, she went shopping and found a dress she liked. But she didn't buy it, and when she returned to the store in a week, it was gone. Instead of slinking away disappointed, she looked around and found a better dress -- for less. Events like this made her a much happier person.

Her experience shows how thoughts and behavior affect the good and bad fortune we encounter. It proves that the most elusive of holy grails -- an effective way of taking advantage of the power of luck -- is available to us all.

Harry Potter 7

"You don't know how it feels. Your parents are dead. You have no family." This was the Ron's dialogue for Harry. I always believe in the saying "A friend in need is a friend indeed", what's wrong Ron? There's a picture of this scene but i couldn't find a way to save it but i've found another picture, which was also taken in the same movie, i like Hermoine's cardigan here.

I saw Harry Potter's 7th movie trailer late last night (this was last month, i just put this in draft) and their pictures from the film, it's really awesome. I was like craving to watch the whole movie in IMAX 3D, november i'm coming.., wheeeeewwww,

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Could 'Goldilocks' planet be just right for life?

WASHINGTON – Astronomers say they have for the first time spotted a planet beyond our own in what is sometimes called the Goldilockszone for life: Not too hot, not too cold. Juuuust right.
Not too far from its star, not too close. So it could contain liquid water. The planet itself is neither too big nor too small for the proper surface, gravity and atmosphere.
It's just right. Just like Earth.
"This really is the first Goldilocks planet," said co-discoverer R. Paul Butler of the Carnegie Institution of Washington.
The new planet sits smack in the middle of what astronomers refer to as the habitable zone, unlike any of the nearly 500 other planets astronomers have found outside our solar system. And it is in our galactic neighborhood, suggesting that plenty of Earth-like planets circle other stars.
Finding a planet that could potentially support life is a major step toward answering the timeless question: Are we alone?
Scientists have jumped the gun before on proclaiming that planets outside our solar system were habitable only to have them turn out to be not quite so conducive to life. But this one is so clearly in the right zone that five outside astronomers told The Associated Press it seems to be the real thing.
"This is the first one I'm truly excited about," said Penn State University's Jim Kasting. He said this planet is a "pretty prime candidate" for harboring life.
Life on other planets doesn't mean E.T. Even a simple single-cell bacteria or the equivalent of shower mold would shake perceptions about the uniqueness of life on Earth.
But there are still many unanswered questions about this strange planet. It is about three times the mass of Earth, slightly larger in width and much closer to its star — 14 million miles away versus 93 million. It's so close to its version of the sun that it orbits every 37 days. And it doesn't rotate much, so one side is almost always bright, the other dark.
Temperatures can be as hot as 160 degrees or as frigid as 25 degrees below zero, but in between — in the land of constant sunrise — it would be "shirt-sleeve weather," said co-discoverer Steven Vogt of the University of California at Santa Cruz.
It's unknown whether water actually exists on the planet, and what kind of atmosphere it has. But because conditions are ideal for liquid water, and because there always seems to be life on Earth where there is water, Vogt believes "that chances for life on this planet are 100 percent."
The astronomers' findings are being published in Astrophysical Journal and were announced by the National Science Foundation on Wednesday.
The planet circles a star called Gliese 581. It's about 120 trillion miles away, so it would take several generations for a spaceship to get there. It may seem like a long distance, but in the scheme of the vast universe, this planet is "like right in our face, right next door to us," Vogt said in an interview.
That close proximity and the way it was found so early in astronomers' search for habitable planets hints to scientists that planets like Earth are probably not that rare.
Vogt and Butler ran some calculations, with giant fudge factors built in, and figured that as much as one out of five to 10 stars in the universe have planets that are Earth-sized and in the habitable zone.
With an estimated 200 billion stars in the universe, that means maybe 40 billion planets that have the potential for life, Vogt said. However, Ohio State University's Scott Gaudi cautioned that is too speculative about how common these planets are.
Vogt and Butler used ground-based telescopes to track the star's precise movements over 11 years and watch for wobbles that indicate planets are circling it. The newly discovered planet is actually the sixth found circling Gliese 581. Two looked promising for habitability for a while, another turned out to be too hot and the fifth is likely too cold. This sixth one bracketed right in the sweet spot in between, Vogt said.
With the star designated "a," its sixth planet is called Gliese 581g.
"It's not a very interesting name and it's a beautiful planet," Vogt said. Unofficially, he's named it after his wife: "I call it Zarmina's World."
The star Gliese 581 is a dwarf, about one-third the strength of our sun. Because of that, it can't be seen without a telescope from Earth, although it is in the Libra constellation, Vogt said.
But if you were standing on this new planet, you could easily see our sun, Butler said.
The low-energy dwarf star will live on for billions of years, much longer than our sun, he said. And that just increases the likelihood of life developing on the planet, the discoverers said.
"It's pretty hard to stop life once you give it the right conditions," Vogt said.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

perfect ending

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next."

Sunday, September 19, 2010

did i marry the right person?

i got this from my auntie's facebook account and thought of posting this here. i want to share this to you. thought u guys might like this just as i did..,

This is a very good article. Those who are still single may learn something from here...
Those who are already married or in a commitment may take it as a guideline to improve your marriage & relationship ...


During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?"
I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?"
In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.
EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse/partner. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit) .

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that __expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?"
And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.
This is when marriages or relationship breakdown. People blame their spouse/partner for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage/relationship for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious.
But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.
You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):


SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression "the labor of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage/relationsh ip work. Sure true love can only happen after you've fallen out of love. When you begin choosing to love, even if you don't feel like doing it ---- that's true love. And that's the foundation of a lasting and strong marriage.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.
Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger.
It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable. .. you can "make"love.

Love is indeed a "decision".. . Not just a feeling. You'll not just go away with your relationship just because the feeling is gone. In the Bible, love is a command. You make it happen.

Remember this always:

"God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go."
FW: Ruth Beltran

"Marriage is more than saying I Do. Marriage, like a precious plant, needs constant tending for it to grow, flourish, and bear fruti to last a lifetime, and beyond."
-David and Evelyn Feliciano

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